These three selections from Tchaikovsky’s opera Eugene Onegin will be performed straight through without pause.
“Letter Scene”:
TATYANA:
Let me perish, but first
let me summon, in dazzling hope,
bliss as yet unknown.
Life’s sweetness is known to me!
I drink the magic potion of desire!
I am beset by visions!
Everywhere, everywhere I look,
I see my fatal tempter!
Wherever I look, I see him!
(She goes to the writing table, sits down, writes, then pauses.)
No, that’s all wrong!
I’ll begin again!
(she tears up the unfinished letter)
Ah, what’s the matter with me! I’m all on fire!
I don’t know how to begin!
(She writes, then pauses and reads it over.)
‘I write to you, – and then?
What more is there to say?
Now, I know, it is within your power
to punish me with disdain!
But if you nourish one grain of pity
for my unhappy lot,
you will not abandon me.
At first I wished to remain silent;
then, believe me, you would never
have known my shame,
never!’
(She puts the letter aside.)
O yes, I swore to lock within my breast
this avowal of a mad and ardent passion.
Alas, I have not the strength to subdue my heart!
Come what may, I am prepared!
I will confess all! Courage!
He shall know all!
(She writes.)
‘Why, oh why did you visit us?
Buried in this remote countryside,
I should never have known you,
nor should I have known this torment.
The turbulence of a youthful heart,
calmed by time, who knows? –
most likely I would have found another,
have proved a faithful wife
and virtuous mother…’
(She becomes lost in thought, then rises suddenly.)
Another! No, not to any other in the world
would I have given my heart!
It is decreed on high,
It is the will of heaven: I am yours!
My whole life has been a pledge
of this inevitable encounter;
I know this: God sent you to me,
you are my keeper till the grave!
You appeared before me in my dreams;
as yet unseen, you were already dear,
your wondrous gaze filled me with longing,
your voice resounded in my heart
long ago … no, it was no dream!
As soon as you arrived, I recognized you,
I almost swooned, began to blaze with passion,
and to myself I said: ‘Tis he!
‘Tis he!
I know it! I have heard you …
Have you not spoken to me in the silence
when I visited the poor
or sought in prayer some solace
for the anguish of my soul?
And just this very moment,
was it not you, dear vision,
that flamed in the limpid darkness,
stooped gently at my bedside
and with joy and love
whispered words of hope?
(She returns to the table and sits down again to write.)
‘Who are you’? My guardian angel
or a wily tempter?
Put my doubts at rest.
Maybe this is all an empty dream,
the self? deception of an inexperienced soul,
and something quite different is to be …’
(She rises again and paces pensively to and fro.)
But so be it! My fate
henceforth I entrust to you;
in tears before you,
your protection I implore,
I implore.
Imagine: I am all alone here!
No one understands me!
I can think no more,
and must perish in silence!
I wait for you,
I wait for you! Speak the word
to revive my heart’s fondest hopes
or shatter this oppressive dream
with, alas, the scorn,
alas, the scorn I have deserved!
(She goes swiftly to the table, hurriedly finishes the letter and signs and seals it.)
Finished! It’s too frightening to read over,
I swoon from shame and fear,
but his honour is my guarantee
and in that I put my trust!
Onegin’s aria:
ONEGIN
You wrote to me.
Don’t deny it. I have read
the avowal of a trusting heart,
the outpouring of an innocent love;
your candor touched me deeply.
It has stirred
feelings long since dormant.
I won’t commend you for this,
But I will repay you
with an equally guileless avowal.
Hear my confession,
then judge me as you will!
ONEGIN
If I wished to pass my life
within the confines of the family circle,
and a kindly fate had decreed for me
the role of husband and father,
then, most like, I would not choose
any other bride than you.
But I was not made for wedded bliss,
it is foreign to my soul,
your perfections are vain,
I am quite unworthy of them.
Believe me, I give you my word,
marriage would be a torment for us.
No matter how much I loved you,
habit would kill that love.
Judge what a thorny bed of roses
Hymen would prepare for us,
and, perhaps, to be endured at length!
One cannot return to dreams and youth,
I cannot renew my soul!
I love you with a brother’s love,
a brother’s love
or, perhaps, more than that!
Perhaps, perhaps more than that!
Listen to me without getting angry,
more than once will a girl exchange
one passing fancy for another.
Learn to control your feelings; …
… Not everyone will understand you as I do.
Inexperience leads to disaster!
Final duet:
ONEGIN
Leave you? Leave you! What! … Leave you?
No! No!
To see you hourly,
to dog your footsteps, to follow
your every smile, movement and glance
with loving eyes,
to listen to you for hours, to understand
in my heart all your perfection,
(falling to his knees, he seizes Tatyana’s hand and covers it with kisses)
to swoon before you in passionate torment
turn pale and pass away: this is bliss,
this is my only dream, my only happiness!
TATYANA
(somewhat frightened, she withdraws her hand)
Onegin, your heart knows
both pride and true honour!
ONEGIN
I cannot leave you!
TATYANA
Eugene! You must. I beg you
to leave me.
ONEGIN
Oh, have pity!
TATYANA
Why hide it, why pretend?
Ah! I love you!
(Overwhelmed by her confession, she sinks on Onegin’s breast. He embraces her, but she recovers her composure quickly and frees herself.)
ONEGIN
What do I hear?
What was that word you spoke?
O joy! Oh, my life!
You are again the Tatyana of former days!
TATYANA
No! No!
You cannot bring back the past!
I am another’s now,
my fate is already decided,
I shall always be true to him.
(She tries to leave, but sinks down, overcome. Onegin kneels before her.)
ONEGIN
Oh, do not drive me away; you love me!
And I will not leave you!
You will ruin your life for nothing!
This is the will of Heaven: you are mine!
All your life has been a pledge
of our union!
And be assured, I was sent to you by God,
I am your protector to the grave!
You cannot refuse me.
For me you must forsake
this hateful house, the clamour of society –
You have no choice!
TATYANA
(rising lo her feet)
Onegin, I shall remain firm; …
ONEGIN
No, you cannot …
… refuse me …
TATYANA
… to another by fate …
… have I been given,
with him will I live and never leave him; …
ONEGIN
… For me …
… you must forsake all, all –
hateful house and social clamour!
You have no choice!
Oh, do not drive me from you, I implore!
You love me; you will ruin
your life for nothing!
You are mine, mine for ever!
TATYANA
… No, I must remember my vows!
Deep in my heart his desperate appeal
strikes an answering chord,
but having stifled the sinful flame,
honour’s severe and sacred duty
will triumph over the passion!
I leave you!
ONEGIN
No! No! No! No!
TATYANA
Enough!
ONEGIN
Oh, I implore you: do not go!
TATYANA
No, I am resolved!
ONEGIN
I love you! I love you!
TATYANA
Leave me!
ONEGIN
I love you!
TATYANA
Farewell for ever!
(She leaves the room.)
ONEGIN
(He stands stupefied for a moment, plunged in despair.)
Ignominy! … Anguish! …
Oh, my pitiable fate!